chapter seven

I am all alone with mother now.... my father packed up all his stuff that he had here at her house and he left. Before mother loaded all her sons and me into the car father had came into the kitchen while i was doing my morning chores he had told me that he was sorry that he couldn' t stay around the house anymore and that he was sorry that i had to keep living like this, i knew that he had been trying to talk mother out of the beatings and punishments for me and even though it didn't work at all he was my hope for escape. He has always been my hero even though he hasn't been able to help me much i never thought that he would leave me and give up on helping me. After today i know that her beatings will be twice as bad as they were when mother and father were together because she would blame me for fathering leaving. I guess i am all on my own now, no friends, no family anymore.... mother was right, im a nobody.

Chapter six

I barely got through today. She started new "games", one of them was to lock me into the bathroom with a bucket of water and ammonia and bleach with a rag and she made me scrub the bathroom title and at first it wasn't as bad because i was able to get some fresh air from the floor vent but then she started figuring out what i was doing and she started closing the vents before she locked me into the bathroom. I could hardly breath. The other new "game" was she made me take off all my cloths and she filled the bath tub up with ice cold water and she made me lay down in the cold water! once got into the water she held down my head underneath the water, i tried to get up but her grip was just too strong. Before she left she told me that if i put my head out of the water that she would make me stay in the water longer. The worst part of this new game was that one of my brothers brought their friend in the bathroom and let them laugh at me as i laid in the tub! not only was my whole body frozen from the water but that once the most embarrassing moment in my life. i thought her games was really bad before but now i am starting to lose all hope of someone coming to save me from her.